Hello. My name is
huiyi.
I've been blessed with wonderful friends, a perfect family and a rare boyfriend and I'm pretty much contented with my life. :)
The few months without school opened my eyes to a lot of things in this world that can't be bought with money, and I caught up with some friends,
lost contact with some others. But I'm still enjoying life as it is now. But i guess I'll be dreading the day school starts.
Right now I'm currently working as a tuition teacher with great kids that make me truly enjoy what i'm doing and makes my life a bit more fufilling than it ever could be.
And here, I just want to thank those who've made a difference in my life. Even those who has caused me anger before, becaues only it's only when i care for you that i can have such strong emotions towards you. :)
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written at Tuesday, May 05, 2009
For the first time in my academic life I didn't get my first choice. And the feeling dam friggin sucks.
From primary school, I got into the school I wanted to get into. RGPS. Topschool. Rich school. Most importantly, my dream school. I admittedly didn't really work for it, it was sheer luck that I got in by relation (that my sis was an alumni). Then I got into RV, not exactly the best school, but still my first choice cos it's like a 5 minute walk from my house and it's a mixed school. Then it was HC, i barely got in with 8points thanks to my 7 points for prelim. Then out of pure providence and my freaking dutch courage to stomp into the humanities office, I go into HP, which was ofcos the ideal situation during then. I've gotten everything i wanted. Right from the very beginning. Even into an em1 pure class, when i was supposed to be in an em2 class. WHY DID I SCREW UP THIS TIME.
I'm just dam sad that this stupid admission exercise is hurting my ego so dam much. And for once I have to admit that i have this huge pride and ego buried inside myself that's causing this hurt. I keep trying to tell myself "i'll get into business sch, graduate with a kickass first class honours and beat the shit all of all the law students" but it's not enough. BUSINESS ISN'T MY FIRST CHOICE. It isn't about sadness, about not getting my passion or wdv, it's about my face/ego/pride. I may not really want to be a lawyer, but I think I would want to get it at my first choice at least. I'm sooo terrible.wanting to snatch away others' chances. But i want it so badly because it's so prestigious.
I think i've let this feeling lead me by the nose for too long. Too brand concious. And i think it's time now that i pour it all all, leave it alone, shut it out and move one. Life's too blooody short to care too much. ><
♥ hui |
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Me and Guansen. :)
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