Hello. My name is
huiyi.
I've been blessed with wonderful friends, a perfect family and a rare boyfriend and I'm pretty much contented with my life. :)
The few months without school opened my eyes to a lot of things in this world that can't be bought with money, and I caught up with some friends,
lost contact with some others. But I'm still enjoying life as it is now. But i guess I'll be dreading the day school starts.
Right now I'm currently working as a tuition teacher with great kids that make me truly enjoy what i'm doing and makes my life a bit more fufilling than it ever could be.
And here, I just want to thank those who've made a difference in my life. Even those who has caused me anger before, becaues only it's only when i care for you that i can have such strong emotions towards you. :)
written at Thursday, May 03, 2007
on my way home today, i thought about a lot of things in life. how some things just didn't go the way they planned.
i
planned to excel in my jc life
i
planned to be emotionally stable.
planned to be safe.
planned.how things didn't go according to plan.
& the feeling just sucks.
maybe some things which didn't go according to plan may be flowing well.
maybe, i'm enjoying myself more now. but i'm sure, i'll screw up at the end. hah... everything is so ambigious now. i'm also unsure of what's going to happen soon. just feel like. yahh.. screwing up my life. never felt so screwed.
anyways, while i was on my way home, i was staring out of the window, clearly this time, with my contacts on. (usually when i'm out i hardly wear glasses/contacts) and i suddenly realise how small everyone looked. okay, not small as in in size although that's true also, but rather how
insignificant everyone seems. like everyone is just... everyone. nothing special. they're all busy people scurrying home for dinner, for a movie, or for a chat with their friends. so..
vulnerable?
yet there was this couple that caught my eye. they were just holding hands. yupps, no p.d.a or anything, but the only reason why they caught my eye was cos
they looked happy. not that everyone didn't look happy. but they were the only ones with the look of perfect bliss. you know, those "looking in your eyes i will melt" kind of expression. while in contrast, the rest of the office yi4 zu2 were all hustling and bustling along with erm, unfriendly frowns on their faces. but then that particular couple made me realise - though all of them are just people, normal insignificant females & males to me, at home, somewhere,
they mean the world to them. ah, perhaps i was just being emotionally or something. but then cruising along the streets of singapore does make me feel a wee bit more positive about the world. i guess that's a good thing. :)
i was at national library before heading down to sgh and then it went pass clarke quay as well. hahah. it was so unnaturally peaceful in the afternoon. comparatively of cos, to the late night parties frequently held there. but you know, there's something about the dirty muddy 'river', faint lights and a white bridge that makes you feel like the world's romantic. lol. perhaps i'm really like, going crazy? so many things going through my brain. think i'm becoming depressed unknowingly. maybe what they say is right.
i'm only smiling cos i'm pretending nothing is wrong in my life. at least by pretending, i can start believing that it's true, even if that's far from the truth.
♥ hui |
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Me and Guansen. :)
My family (at ben & jerry's dempsey)
My cousin (cotton candy at jp!)
friends, like yj, jane, nengz, sihui, andrea. Iloveyouguys :)
