Hello. My name is
huiyi.
I've been blessed with wonderful friends, a perfect family and a rare boyfriend and I'm pretty much contented with my life. :)
The few months without school opened my eyes to a lot of things in this world that can't be bought with money, and I caught up with some friends,
lost contact with some others. But I'm still enjoying life as it is now. But i guess I'll be dreading the day school starts.
Right now I'm currently working as a tuition teacher with great kids that make me truly enjoy what i'm doing and makes my life a bit more fufilling than it ever could be.
And here, I just want to thank those who've made a difference in my life. Even those who has caused me anger before, becaues only it's only when i care for you that i can have such strong emotions towards you. :)
written at Sunday, April 01, 2007
have you ever wondered how it feels like to really regret somethings that you've said before? haha i have. and many a time, i wished i could like gobble up every single word that i regret saying. all those sentences that i said to hurt people that's closest around me. those that pierce through their heart. :( i wished that life was like that.
"sticks and stones may break bones, but words can shatter a soul."
haha how true. sadly i never realised it recently.
but sometimes, the lack of words can break ones heart too.
i'm sorry i've been spending less time with you recently. i know i'm supposed to, but so many things been happening and i really need my own time to sort out my feelings. the mournful things happening recently are enough to keep me awake at night these few weeks. the only consolation that i have is that the people around me are having a great life. so cheerup, and please ignore me, cos looking at me sulk will probably just make you feel more upset.
all that f-word that i've ever said, all my criticism, all those verbal abuse i threw at my juniors (which is required really) i wish after i said them i could keep them all back but i guess words are like feathers. you put them on the road to mark your trail, but it'll just all fly away - no way to collect them back. there's so many analogy about said words but honestly, if those were untrue, we wouldn't be using them, talking about them all the time. to a certain extent i'm sure that we all regret something that we said in our past.
i'm regretting it now.
not so 'past' but rather a 'recent past'
haha. i wished i didn't say it. cos perhaps the ending would have been different.
it's like one of those games that you choose a decision each time you move ahead one step.
i wished i had taken the other step and NOT say it out.
-sigh-
"in life, there are no erasers. what you've said and written in your book of life can never be deleted."
♥ hui |
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Me and Guansen. :)
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