Hello. My name is
huiyi.
I've been blessed with wonderful friends, a perfect family and a rare boyfriend and I'm pretty much contented with my life. :)
The few months without school opened my eyes to a lot of things in this world that can't be bought with money, and I caught up with some friends,
lost contact with some others. But I'm still enjoying life as it is now. But i guess I'll be dreading the day school starts.
Right now I'm currently working as a tuition teacher with great kids that make me truly enjoy what i'm doing and makes my life a bit more fufilling than it ever could be.
And here, I just want to thank those who've made a difference in my life. Even those who has caused me anger before, becaues only it's only when i care for you that i can have such strong emotions towards you. :)
written at Tuesday, March 27, 2007
omg omg omg
dreams, they tell us everything don't they? i had a dream this afternoon while taking my afternoon nap. it's one of those days that everything that is passing in your life is going at a pace of a fifth of what a normal student goes through, and a hundredth of a hwa chong student.
but i digress.
i had this dream, about robbery. i was in a foreign country with someone, a girl. a friend? a sister? or a cousin, i'm not entirely sure all i know for sure was that for an unknown reason, all my lauggage were left at the control station of the mrt like place. the place that looks like a mrt station, did a perfect job in imitating the one in singapore. well, it could have been in singapore, but somehow the image of me holidaying in Singapore, with lauggage didn't really fit, since i might as well left all my clothes at home, and mugging incidents don't happen in singapore.
so where was i? oh yah, my dream. so apparently for a few days consequetively, i've been mugged in the mrt station lookalike place. the same place with different bags and different people. somehow, not a single one was interested in the lauggage but all in my bag. and the worse thing is no one really helped me. i didn't really care about the mugging incident, i really don't know why i didn't. but i just didn't. so i continued with my daily route of going to the mrt station place, continually getting mugged. i remember chasing after him though and i don't remember his face. i was screaming like a mad lady. so anyways, i just got mugged like 1000 times until i think i got really sick of it. :/
SO i think i kinda gave up but on the day that i got 'scolded' for my messy lauggage hanging around public area (which i was extremely surprised considering the amount of time i left it there and no one complained >.<) and i started packing up all my sprawled possesions. then the dumb mugger striked again. i think i was feeling really pissed in my dream on that day (must be that old wretched woman who scolded me for my clothes around that area) cos i started chasing him and screaming obscenities that a girl should never speak of. surprisingly (my dream is FULL of surprises T.T) some guys went after that robber and surprisingly,(yet again) an old bald man caught him by throwing his walking cane at him but, the robber shot him! ok i don't think the bald old man got shot cos the next instant, i know for sure a young guy got shot, totally not bald and can walk properly.
but the point is, i was terrified, (in my dream) and i was like omg omg omg omg he's pointing the gun around. as in i really felt the feeling of standing at gunpoint. you know what they say about people at gun point think about the moments in life which took their breathe away, how some people really matter to you? yah, that's what i felt. it's stupid, considering it's just a dream and i thought of someone. as in i thought of many people man, but that someone is special, cos when i thought of him, he appeared running and screaming for me. and when i saw him, i climbed up two stairs and just collapsed in his arms. oddly, i jerked up from my sleep the moment that happened. cos i'm not supposed to like him. at all. and i know i'm very attached to him, totally, but i don't like him in that sense. not supposed to. and by right never will.
i have to take this as a stupid dream. but why do i feel so shaken up? i don't know how to express the way i feel now in words. my pathetic range of vocabulary just doesn't quite cut it this time. i feel like " yay i'm in love with him. " and i feel like "shit wth am i going to do" and i feel like " omg this is just a dream
just a dream, nothing more" i feel all these mixed together.
shit, it's me isn't it.
stressed must be piling on at the back of my brain.
oh i love farenheit. :D
♥ hui |
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