Hello. My name is
huiyi.
I've been blessed with wonderful friends, a perfect family and a rare boyfriend and I'm pretty much contented with my life. :)
The few months without school opened my eyes to a lot of things in this world that can't be bought with money, and I caught up with some friends,
lost contact with some others. But I'm still enjoying life as it is now. But i guess I'll be dreading the day school starts.
Right now I'm currently working as a tuition teacher with great kids that make me truly enjoy what i'm doing and makes my life a bit more fufilling than it ever could be.
And here, I just want to thank those who've made a difference in my life. Even those who has caused me anger before, becaues only it's only when i care for you that i can have such strong emotions towards you. :)
written at Tuesday, March 20, 2007
odd feeling now. i've never felt so speechless before. neither have a stuttered and said odd things that would destroy my facade. wth, it must have the hideous knock at island cremery. fuck, things always go hay-wired when everything seemed to move so smoothly.
have you ever felt so helpless before? you used to excel in something, bloody hell, you used to excel in almost everything, except possibly chinese language. now you're reduced to being judged by a fucking D grade. i know i'm being vulgar in this post. but i can't help it. i'm feeling this sense of being lost. fuck that feeling sucks. i can seem to figure out what's wrong. what the hell is wrong?! i'm frustrated, is my lack of feelings obstructing my love for lit? haha so cliched but i always believed that feelings must be involve in our work, especially in poems. if it's about romance, you need that feeling to understand what the writer is trying to say. if it's about death or losing someone close i guess it's helpful to have contextual knowledge? perhaps i've been feeling so unemotional, so cold recently that i've forgotten how to feel. mayb.
and i've never feared anything more than being dao-ed.
fuck it's the only thing i've feared that much.
but perhaps it's the best way for both of us? haha.
at least it'll stop me thinking so much. stop me from finding excuses to start a conversation.
"how's the weather today?"
BAHHH.
must be me, must be the spring feeling.
must be those odd feelings i'm getting mixed up.
MUST BE THAT BUMP ON THE ISLAND CREMERY SIGN
♥ hui |
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Important people in my life
Me and Guansen. :)
My family (at ben & jerry's dempsey)
My cousin (cotton candy at jp!)
friends, like yj, jane, nengz, sihui, andrea. Iloveyouguys :)
