Hello. My name is
huiyi.
I've been blessed with wonderful friends, a perfect family and a rare boyfriend and I'm pretty much contented with my life. :)
The few months without school opened my eyes to a lot of things in this world that can't be bought with money, and I caught up with some friends,
lost contact with some others. But I'm still enjoying life as it is now. But i guess I'll be dreading the day school starts.
Right now I'm currently working as a tuition teacher with great kids that make me truly enjoy what i'm doing and makes my life a bit more fufilling than it ever could be.
And here, I just want to thank those who've made a difference in my life. Even those who has caused me anger before, becaues only it's only when i care for you that i can have such strong emotions towards you. :)
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written at Tuesday, May 05, 2009
For the first time in my academic life I didn't get my first choice. And the feeling dam friggin sucks.
From primary school, I got into the school I wanted to get into. RGPS. Topschool. Rich school. Most importantly, my dream school. I admittedly didn't really work for it, it was sheer luck that I got in by relation (that my sis was an alumni). Then I got into RV, not exactly the best school, but still my first choice cos it's like a 5 minute walk from my house and it's a mixed school. Then it was HC, i barely got in with 8points thanks to my 7 points for prelim. Then out of pure providence and my freaking dutch courage to stomp into the humanities office, I go into HP, which was ofcos the ideal situation during then. I've gotten everything i wanted. Right from the very beginning. Even into an em1 pure class, when i was supposed to be in an em2 class. WHY DID I SCREW UP THIS TIME.
I'm just dam sad that this stupid admission exercise is hurting my ego so dam much. And for once I have to admit that i have this huge pride and ego buried inside myself that's causing this hurt. I keep trying to tell myself "i'll get into business sch, graduate with a kickass first class honours and beat the shit all of all the law students" but it's not enough. BUSINESS ISN'T MY FIRST CHOICE. It isn't about sadness, about not getting my passion or wdv, it's about my face/ego/pride. I may not really want to be a lawyer, but I think I would want to get it at my first choice at least. I'm sooo terrible.wanting to snatch away others' chances. But i want it so badly because it's so prestigious.
I think i've let this feeling lead me by the nose for too long. Too brand concious. And i think it's time now that i pour it all all, leave it alone, shut it out and move one. Life's too blooody short to care too much. ><
i miss you guys :(
written at Sunday, May 03, 2009
Haven't been blogging recently beacuse i've been feeling very slack~ Eating, sleeping and eating again. Haven't charged my digital camera's battery yet, so no photos as well. Boring right? But knowing myself, even with the photos i'll be too lazy to upload anything hoho.
I guess I statr with a small recount about our gathering on friday. :) Met Nengz, sihui, kylie, anyi and dominic for dinner at nengz's house, ate boontongkee chicken rice. Was a total yumz. wish I had all those photos of the food and everything, but to those who was there with me, mentally insert those photos here. Dominic bought cream puffs and eclairs for all of us from, get this, BEARD PAPA. I LOVE BP! I really didn't expect this from Dom, felt like I was a parasite lah, didn't bring anything for those wonderful people. Andrea was supposed to be with us, but somehow she didn't make it and it was pretty disappointing. I wish she was there with us. :( But we still had a good time. Seeing nengz's family did make me get this pang of jealousy. I want that too. haha, emo emo.
Saturday met gs and went to marina sq. Nothing much, just walked around there, browsing at clothes and trying on some, and then feeling too broke and walking out of the store. That's exactly the same routine i've been having these few weeks. I then told him this "I wish I don't have to think so much about spending money. I hate being so rational about money". totally true. But i hate feeling broke. I rather not buy something than to 'feel' broke. So, I missed topshop's 40% off 2nd item, AND Fox's 40% off 2nd item. AND FJ Benjamin's sale (30% off GAP, La Senza, and Guess to name a few).
AND to add on to this, I'm missing NYX's 50% off sale just because some stupid bitch on lj decided to be extremely rude. *warning, ranting ahead
I was going to order a bunch of things on cherry culture and I saw her payment calculation as "$3 (initial shipping)", obviously all spree organisers (note: decent ones!) would state how much per item usually, but this girl just put this there, prompting a few of us to ask "hi is this a flat fee or must multiply by the no. of items". I, (obviously!) had to ask and said "i'll like to know too because $3 per item seems like a lot" and she just had to reply rudely and say that "she didn't put /item and wonders why I would even assume that". SERIOUSLY! she could have just said YES. instead of that whole string of words which was evidently implying that i'm a retard. Mayb i'm too frustrated and sensitive about this but I've posting my dam friggin long comment on a spree post which suddenly closed and I am pissed and she only accepts NORMAL post. Which i find spree org who do that totally dubious. Totally out to kop people's spree loots. That's why totally no more normal mails from now on. it's jsut toooooo suspicious when my items go missing the MOMENT i don't do registered mail. I HATE NORMAL MAIL.
*rant over.
I'm so sorry for this stupid nonsensical post. But I promise i'll put some photos up soon.
I've just developed my overseas photo though, they've all got this totally cool vintage feel. :)
