I've been blessed with wonderful friends, a perfect family and a rare boyfriend and I'm pretty much contented with my life. :) The few months without school opened my eyes to a lot of things in this world that can't be bought with money, and I caught up with some friends, lost contact with some others. But I'm still enjoying life as it is now. But i guess I'll be dreading the day school starts. Right now I'm currently working as a tuition teacher with great kids that make me truly enjoy what i'm doing and makes my life a bit more fufilling than it ever could be. And here, I just want to thank those who've made a difference in my life. Even those who has caused me anger before, becaues only it's only when i care for you that i can have such strong emotions towards you. :)
happy vday to me
happy vday to me
happy vday to meeeee
happy vday to ME.
haha. valentine's day. i never thought i'll hate the day as much as i do now. i always thought it was a day filled with love but then, what bullshit it turned out to be. :( cross country, no rv pple, and erghhhh. i'm pissed off. sometimes i rather we have lessons on vday, at least it's unavoidable and i have a reason to stay in school and rot.
i just realised how insignificant people can get in hc cos there are too many people around and you just don't know where and how to start. :/ valentine's is like this HUGE social event.. you don't even know where to go how to start and how you're going to get through it. luckily, i'm finally through it. i think i'll start to dread valentine's for next year already.
on the other hand, thanks to EVERYONE who actually gave me gifts. :D at leAst you guys remembered me and aww, i'm damn happy that you did. :) although i've only known some of you for a month or so, i'm touched that you guys bothered to get us something!
07A15 guys: thanks for the great cookies with my name :) deeelicious! :)))
Hannah: thanks for the cute lil' hairclip :) it's nice and it's PINK!
Cherrylene: thanks for the herseys and more so for the note! i love you too! :) and i hope we really get to stay together in hwachong!
Xiang: nice roses although haha are leftovers. :) smells sweet! & for the mnms too :)))
QianLing: thanks for the heart thinger. super sweet although you spelt my name wrongly HAHA.
Claire: thanks for being so concerned! I LOVE YOU! thanks for your very last rose. :D
Marylene and Huimin: thanks for the mixed goodies. :) had cute packaging on them
Ben Poh: love the earrings though i nv pierce my ears. :/ nvm thanks all the same! :D
Ben Chow: AH I LOVE THE COOKIES AND THE WONKA AND THE CRANE AND THE LETTER. :) i'll get you something for white valentine. i think it's 14 march :)))
Jeffrey: xie xie for your kinder bueno. i'm left with half a pack now! :)
WeiLi: thanks baichi for the marshmallows tasted weird. :p like you!
Jiateng: thanks for the cookie which never did arrive. like my rose :(
Beiru: thanks for being so sweet to alight at the bustop to pass me the chocs for them and me :) really appreciate the efforts.
Jayne: haha i'm not sure if it's vday or xmas but either way, i've yet to express my thanks lahh. :) THANK YOU!
Yujia: i'm glad you enjoyed your rose! I LOVE YOU TOO!
Shiwei: despite me not seeing you, i'm still glad that i'm at least worth a rose from you HAHA. i hope you found cat today ;p
guansen: thanks for the roses, the cup (haha the beast :p) and the card most of all. i hope you liked my gift ! :D it's only PARt of it and yes i love you too!!
to all others i've forgotten: haha THANKS. i don't have my baggy with me so i've not covered everyone. :) i really appreciate all the gifts and happy vday to you!
the reason why i'm sad is i didn't have a chance to give presents to those that are in other schs. everyone is like super busy. i'm like.. super irritated. i miss theM! and i was emo-ing in school again today. still, i wished i saw them. but yet i had some disappointment today: cases of recycled gifts, people that didn't appreciate you. (OH MAN TALK ABOUT DEJAVU), ahh somany bads!
i'm glad i'm seeing yujia on friday. :) glad i'm going out on tomorrow for a nice peaceful dinner.
the year's coming to an end with a peaceful pop!
i love you guys!
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written at Tuesday, February 13, 2007one and a half more hours to huang cheng.
am slacking in the com lab now. :(
just had hagen daiz ice cream for dessert with anyi. ooh man i feel so much more better :) the last week has been a tumultous month and i feel so bloody dam drained. mentally mostly. i'm so tired out by worrying about my o level results and the posting of schools. apparently, i may not be able to get in through appealing from huang cheng and barnard, but still, i harbour this hope that i may get lucky and get in by chance :D
my secret valentine & mortal is super lucky. i am so going to gooble up their candies. :D
ah and my history essay sucked big time. i think if i have a chance i'll try to re-do it and GRRR. i'll make sure i do fairly well this time. sir's email will be shorter or else i'll be suicidal. i can't score and 8/25 for a 3 weeks long essay :/
thanks BR, jiateng & yujia sweets. you guys made my day with those little messages though it may seem insignificant :) it means a lot to me! i hope i get to see you guys soon! i'm missing all of you here! :*( sobbs.
if i'm not in hc anymore, i promise i'll go nj or ac. :)
i'll have to look on the bright side of life; if there's any.
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written at Sunday, February 11, 2007o level results.
unexpectedly bad.
disappointed faces and much unhappiness. i never thought that i'll see the day that mr chen, mr ng and probably sir had such immensely disappointed faces. all my math subjects were shit. my physics got a bloody a2. all i see on my result slip is As, but yet only 4 a1s after calculation. BAD, extremely bad. i bet even my mum is upset.
" you're not as good as your sister." HAHA. yes i know. i hate being compared. i'm in ARTS. she was in SCIENCE. one has 3 letters and the other 7. why can she not understand that although arts may be not as common, but i'm enjoying myself, every minute of my journey is a step towards my dream. why can't she accept it? :/
she's not going to have any friends very soon. cos i'm giving up on her. she's ungrateful, a disappointment and a disgrace to have as a friend. i used to think i could live with being someone as a 2nd choice, i thought i could; honestly. but i realised that no matter how much i try to brush away that thought of being friends with someone like that, it's really difficult to continue that friendship. every conversation i hold with her feels like hot boiling oil forced down my throat. it burns and scalds me each time i speak to her.
"stop being so judgemental. stop putting yourself on a pedastal. stop feeling like a princess, stop trying to hurt peoples' feelings. stop playing pathetic, stop feeling that you're the only one who's working(cos we're all tired of you too), stop using your words to destroy peoples' dignity, stop feeling that you're the smartest person just cos of some lame reason(that i do not justify it as being smart), & stop doing all those above to everyone. cos it just irks the hell out of people."
ahh, rants. always make me a whole lot better.
i promise i won't be so critical anymore.
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written at Friday, February 09, 2007i dunno how i'm supposed to feel.. relieved? sad? anxious? i really don't know. i've been thinking. i don't know how to continue the next two years cos i'm unsure of my own ability. it's not that i'm unconfident, but i'm just doubting the friendship i have in hc. is everything just superficial? i'm afraid. cos i know things will never revert back to how it was....
i saw yujia today and the moment we saw each other we just hugged and cried. i miss those times that we went to the toilet together. at least during then, i knew that someone was willing to spend that 5mins alone with me.. it feels as if i've taken that for granted all those little things that 4e has done for me. the way sophia clutched my hand when she took her result slips. the way we hugged, the way we walked from the canteen to the hall... i miss all these so much!! yet now i feel like an alternative. a spare tyre. :( how things change, & how i wish that i hadn't been so naive. i've given all my 'friendship' to everyone and now i'm drained in spirit.
I FEEL LIKE A SPARE TYRE AROUND PEOPLE
they only take me out when they need me. :(
am i full of imperfections that people can only see but fail to see the fragile inner soul.
sw:
to some, you may be 'the alternative', but to others, you might just be the only glimpse of light that stands by
i hope i am really. i'm like super hurt. in HC i'm only just one of the spare tyres. cos they're friends are not in the same class. EMO.
huiyi the spare tyre.
no true friends. except for the other spare tyre. :/
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written at Tuesday, February 06, 2007GP homework. grr, tired!
i just bloody got home at 10 plus pm. 1038 to be exact -sigh- how wonderfully tired i get each day. i'm going to be hustling around so much that i hope i'll forget about my woes over the o levels. OH RIGHT. not possible :/
to add to my boundless misery, i'm getting my o levels result on friday, & on top of that, i have to go to school and endure incoherent rambling by my international history teacher from scotland. oh how i hate scottish accent! although it's oh-so-sexy but it's also oh-so-incomprehendable. :/
huangcheng people were awfully nice to me. haha, said they'll appeal and petition for me if i don't get into hc after my 1st 3 months. a14/15 also said that but i wonder how many of them actually meant it in their hearts. people tend to say nice things to potray themselves as saints. i wonder how many of them really feel that way. :( i think my only regret will be to not know the huangcheng people and my tutorial group well enough. especially the former, cos i think they're really darn nice people around in hc :)
econs test was as expected, a KILLER. who knows what's human capital? :/ i don't and i certainly think its not wages (which is exactly what i wrote :X).
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written at Monday, February 05, 2007omg i can't believe how political my class can be at times.
tSk. reminds me of 2j'04 :/ not a god memory
oh man results are coming out in like 4 days time & i'm totally unconfident about it.
perhaps it's fated and destinied that such a undignified girl like me will end up in an undignified school. which i have yet to find out which unlucky college is to be branded as such by yours truly. honestly, i'm put off by the fact that i have to re-adapt in a place where everyone would probably have bonded with the rest of the dudes. :/ i'm one of those dumbos who'll probably sit on the ruggers bench on my 1st day at school at ACJC or i'll insult NJ canoe or something stupid along that line. HAHAAHAHA. hilarious cos it's so going to happen. & by then, i dare say i'll be 90% suicidal.
econs test: totally mugging for it now. i can totally see "opportunity costs" in my sleep. OH WAIT, was that in my soup too?
lit test: calvin the humans top scholar got a U, i think i'll get something like a UNDER-U or something (perhaps a V?)
MATH: I AM SO GOING TO FLUNK WITH A 0. although it'll only be held in april. understand nothing, i do.
every other thing : it's too much crap for all of us to comprehend :/
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written at Sunday, February 04, 2007john sloman is not helping.
fo is helping but most important, my bloody stagnant brain is dead. :/ i have no idea that i slacked my weekend away until like now, 9.30pm sunday, that i realised that i haven't touched my history essay in like what, 5 days. i'm so giong to flunk. HAHA. not to mention econs. is it just me or does everyone else not understand what sloman is saying? he's like speaking tamil or something. anyone care to help?
i bought candy!
i'm darn sad, o lvls is coming out. i'm going to be soo dead.
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written at Thursday, February 01, 2007of writing letters and heavy eyelids
oohhh, finally completed letters for those that i should have done so a long time ago. yes, i'm thoroghly exhausted :/ i think i will have tonnes of typo mistakes today and i am not going to care
oohhh, finally completed letters for those that i should have done so a long time ago. yes, i'm thoroghly exhausted :/ i think i will have tonnes of typo mistakes today and i am not going to care
i finally updated the chatbox. arghhh, so irritating! it expires in like what? a week's time? :/ this blog has been freaking inactive for 10 years or so. -sigh sometimes i wish technology was more advanced. perhaps they can try making a chat box permanent, the way it's supposed to be in the first place. grrr, or maybe i should just give up on flooble. GAH. i'm babbling rubbish to myself again. i guess that's the purpose of the blog. OH and of course, my favourite hobby - HAHA cam whoring. :)
me & choonyen loving it at our my CT bench.
me & anyi acting stupid at our class bench. yes we were supposed to do math. :/
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